Jill Halfpenny has spoken for the first time about her ‘unbearable’ grief after her partner tragically passed away in 2017.
Speaking to Line Of Duty’s Craig Parkinson on The Two Shot Podcast, the actress, 44, detailed her secret heartache when her unnamed boyfriend suffered a fatal heart attack at the gym.
Jill went onto tell Craig that her partner’s death felt like a ‘double loss’ as it mirrored the circumstances of her father’s death in 1979 when she was just four years old.
Upsetting: Jill Halfpenny has spoken for the first time about ‘unbearable’ grief after her partner tragically passed away in 2017 (pictured above in June 2016)
Jill explained that she had never spoken about her boyfriend’s death before, but did reveal it took place in January 2017.
The former EastEnders star said that her partner’s death mirrored her father’s passing, which happened when she was just four years of age.
She said: ‘Something happened a couple of years ago – I experienced something I’ve never ever spoken about.’
Close: Jill spoke for the first time about her boyfriend’s death during an interview with Line Of Duty star Craig Parkinson on his The Two Shot podcast
Tough time: The actress explained that her unnamed partner suffered a fatal heart attack at the gym, and said the circumstances mirrored her father’s death when she was five (above 2015)
‘In January 2017 my partner, in very similar circumstances to my dad, went to the gym, had a heart attack and died,’ she continued.
Jill then admitted that her partner’s death lead to all her grief from her father’s death returning to the surface, and branded the tragedy a ‘double loss.’
The star said that her dad’s death came when after he went out to play a game of football, and suffered a heart attack in the middle of the match.
Struggles: Describing her grief Jill said: ‘Oh my god, it’s unbearable. I cannot cope with these feelings. I just want cessation: the feeling to stop’ (above in the BBC drama Dark Money)
Describing her grief Jill said: ‘Oh my god, it’s unbearable. I cannot cope with these feelings. I just want cessation: the feeling to stop.’
The star went onto tell Craig that despite her grief she prefers to face her emotions rather than bottle them up.
Jill was previously married to actor Craig Conway from 2007 to 2010, and the couple share a son.
The star is most well known for playing Kate Mitchell in EastEnders, who married Albert Square’s notorious hardman Phil.
Sadly she was axed from the soap after just two years in 2004, and her character departed Walford the following year for a new life in Brighton.
Soap actress: Jill previously played Kate Mitchell in EastEnders for three years before she was axed from the soap in 2004
Since then Jill has worked steadily in various dramatic roles, including Waterloo Road, the highly acclaimed drama Three Girls and most recently the series Dark Money.
Jill recently spoke about her father’s death in an interview with The Radio Times in July, saying: ‘He was playing football and had a heart attack. In the morning he was there and then, in the evening, he wasn’t.
‘Girls are brought up to believe that Daddy will be the person that comes to their rescue.
‘When you’ve lost that sense of somebody being able to come to your rescue, you say, ”To hell with it. I’ll be my own rescuer”.’
Getting better: The star went onto say that despite her grief she prefers to face her emotions rather than bottle them up