A teetotal yoga enthusiast has told how taking up the ancient practice helped her to overcome suicidal thoughts after the breakdown of several relationships.
Miriam Rees, from London, developed an interest in yoga following the breakdown of her marriage after just six months.
The 35-year-old, who spent years battling depression and considering taking her own life revealed that concerns over how her family would cope prevented her from going through with the act.
‘Yoga is the most beautiful healing I have ever experienced,’ she told MailOnline.
‘The best part about yoga and the angels who teach it is that you only have to step through the door and the rest is taken care of. The only thing you need in order to do yoga is to breathe and we can all do that.’
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Miriam Rees, 35, (pictured) from London told how a £1,500 retreat in Ibiza transformed her mindset after battling with depression and suicidal thoughts
Miriam Rees practicing meditation. The vegan boxer who spent much of her childhood living in Wales revealed that she grew up seeing her mum battle with physical and emotional abuse
Miriam, pictured, revealed she turned to relationships because she struggled to find safety and security within herself – which resulted in the breakdown of her marriage
Speaking about her family background, she added: ‘My father’s side of the family are Muslim but as I didn’t grow up with them I had no idea about the religion. I am now an atheist. I am very spiritual and believe in a higher power.
‘I spent half of my life in three relationships because I was searching for safety and security and found it in someone else. Little did I know that I had everything I need within me.’
Miriam added: ‘I’ve had boyfriends from the age of 13, my first boyfriend I was with for three years. I then met my second boyfriend aged 16 and we were together until I was 22.
‘I met my ex husband, the kindest man in the world, aged 23. We were together for eight and a half years and I ended the relationship a year and a half after we got married.
‘It was around six months after our wedding that it dawned on me that I had been following a script that society had laid out for me. I was with a very kind, lovely man but I wasn’t living the life meant for me.’
Miriam, pictured, at one point considered taking her own life on two different occasions because of the guilt she experienced from ending romantic relationships
Miriam (pictured at a meditation session) says going through divorce felt like having her whole life gone in a split second and as though she had died inside
Miriam began looking at the prospects of her future and the expectation to settle down and have children after being married for around six months (pictured in the boxing ring)
After Miriam’s marriage breakdown she felt like she had ‘died inside’, saying: ‘I hated myself and wanted to punish myself for ruining someone else’s life. Feeling so helpless and worthless is the worst feeling in the world. I felt like there was no way out of the severe depression I was in.
Miriam, who has recently begun working as a positivity coach, was advised by a friend in the gym to attend a retreat, visited a £1,500 retreat in Ibiza which sparked her interest in yoga after going through a phase of partying continuously.
‘I partied every weekend for two years and now I rarely drink alcohol and definitely don’t touch anything else. It was the typical searching for something and I found that in partying.
‘I felt good for a night or two and then I felt terrible but it would start again in a few days so I’d get through the bad days. I lived on my own and had no real control over my partying ways.
Miriam who also works as a positivity coach began to spend every weekend partying and indulging in alcohol to escape from her negative emotions. She no longer drinks
Miriam (pictured) was inspired to experiment with yoga and spirituality after a £1500 retreat in Ibiza which transformed her mindset
‘A friend in my gym could see I needed some help and to seek some form of comfort so she suggested I look into yoga retreats. I then researched retreats in Ibiza as I love the island.’
Miriam added: ‘I spent five nights staying in a stunning luxury villa, eating fresh vegan food and being taught yoga twice a day. We took part in meditations, therapies, horse riding and ended on a beach in Ibiza dancing to the sunset.
‘It was surprising how quickly I began to change in Ibiza, after a day or two I could feel myself starting to heal, I also started to become more self aware, and knew I needed to turn inwards to be able to deal with the past and the programming I had gathered throughout the years.
Miriam (pictured) launched online community Vibrational Jungle, with her best friend Valencia to reach out to women who want to learn more about spirituality
The 35-year-old hopes their project will be able to motivate women and help them to see spirituality as something ‘cool’, Miriam is also beginning work on her own Women’s Empowerment project
‘After two years of intense inner work, I was guided to move to London to start my business with my best friend. I knew London was the right environment for me to carry out my dreams.’
She continued: ‘I spent my whole life trying to fit into a world in Wales where I didn’t fit, I tried to live a life where I was married, in my lovely home, planning children, going on holidays but at that time those things were not meant for me.
‘I believe society expects women to fit into a box when the reality is we’ve been creating them for years’
Miriam shares advice on spiritual practices on Instagram under the handle ‘@vibrationaljungle’